Hey party people. Today i wish i coulda slept more, but it was enough i guess. I haven't really done much today...went to english and got a B+ on my paper. It should've been higher in my opinion cuz there wasn't much wrong with it, just some commas missing and like 4 minor things after that. But i think i overheard him say something how he expects them all to get better so when we hand in the next ones the grades will be higher. Maybe i imagined that, but i think i heard it.


Then i went on the internet and did nothing and decided to get lunch w/ jeff. oh i just remembered we need to get our free astrology reports that we signed up for haha. so we ate w/ kyle and two other ppl and then came back to my room where we played inklink and listened to some music. Then he had to go to class so i walked w/ him there and then went to the library to drop off a book. This is probably boring you to tears. Sorry.

I dunno...a lot of people are going to facades tonight cuz it's foam night and oh my! girls in bikinis! jeff keeps teasing me he's gonna go but i don't think he will. Either way you gotta be 18 and he's 17. It really stinks for him cuz a lot of stuff we wanna do he isn't "old" enough for. It's not very fair. but i told him i can wait until his bday to go to facades again. I don't like goin there w/o him anyway...it would be a lot more fun for me if he was there.

Well i guess i'll post some more later and include a question too cuz right now i don't feel like writing one. later

today i woke up around 10 when jeff came in my room, acting quite crazy cuz he stayed up all night. Not one minute of sleep. He was acting super hyper so i fed him a bagel and then we went to sleep until saved by the bell came on...i watched the first one then fell asleep during the other one. I woke up to the cosby show thinking....wow bill cosby made a guest appearance on saved by the bell? then i realized the actual cosby show was on. i was messing with my brain too much so i got up and took a shower, then i talked to greg a little bit and found out he is actually a god. (thanks for the info) then the punk greg told me we got the yellowcard tickets so i was happy again. This friday woohoo!

Then anton was so nice and gave me a ride to the medical center where i got my 3rd and final hepatitus b shot. It took about 40 min cuz i had to call my mom to fax over my old shot history but then i finally got in for the shot that took a second to get. It's weird though cuz my other ones weren't sore afterwards and this one sorta is. I think it's cuz the doctor kinda closed his eyes and poked the needle wherever he wanted. it was from like a million miles away he held the needle then just went straight. who knows if it even hit a vain. o well it should be ok

so then jeff, andrew and i went to dinner (lunch for me) and then jeff and i went to the IVCF meeting. It was cool cuz the speaker was talking about The Case for Faith by lee strobel who wrote The Case for Christ which was really good. A lot of the stuff he talked about was in the one i read so i knew what he was talking about. And then- even better we got a free copy of the faith book so that's one less i have to buy :) I reccomend the The Case for Christ to anyone with questions about how trustworthy the bible is. It answers so many questions but doens't force anything on you at the same time. Really good writing. I guess it's because he's a journalist and he knows how to write w/o forcing an opinion.

After that whole thing I went off to my seminar class which is also religious based so yesterday and todat I've really had a good dose of it. Wednesday there is a womens bible study but it's in the apartments so i dunno if i'm gonna travel all the way over there. I'll see though. Well right now i just realized i have homework for English tomorrow that i put off for no apparent reason. So i'm gonna read that stuff now..later friends

I'm gonna start giving out questions so you ppl start making shout outs.
What is so different about Christianity and Catholicism? It's been a question around here lately.

So saturday began the boring weekend. I don't know what happened even. Oh yeah we got woken up by the fire alarm duck at 1:00 and then after the 45 minutes were over i got to go in and take a shower...but the day really didn't even start until like 4...when jeff and i went on a hunt for food. Birch and the pavillion were closed so we were gonna wait until 5 when it was open but instead we went w/ Greg, greg's cousin ryan and his girlfriend Amanda, Mark and his g/f nicole. We went to a place called the fireplace and the food was really good and pretty cheap. Then jeff and i went w/ mark and nicole to shoprite and that was all the excitement for the day. I'll be back later cuz we are going to liquid now bye people!

Well we just got back from Liquid. It was fun, I went w/ Jeff, bobby and these ppl Laura and Shawn who go to ramapo too. Then we saw spooner, kim berg, nate bastian and courtney pfriender there. it was like a young life reunion but not really. Either way it was cool to go again. Oh yeah Jeremy was there...it was really weird to see him. He seems to keep popping up everywhere. So i talked to him a little bit and then we left for ramapo again. Oh yeah and we stopped at McDonalds where we walked up to the drive thru window guy to order. I've never done that before and a car almost killed us :-p it was a good night i thought

So now i guess i should go back in time and say how my saturday was. After we went to the fireplace and all i went back to jeff's room and we played fluxx when Jon came over. I beat them so many times it made up for my losing streak friday night. muhuhhaha i rock

So i have to write people like actual letters cuz i think everyone thinks im forgetting about them. I'm not! it's just i'm a very annoyingly lazy person....and i even though i intend to do things, i just don't. so yeah i need to get out of that habit but i dunno if i ever will. Anyways i will try to write people and get those letters out asap.

In other news...i have a subprofile now on my info and there are cool things on it so let's start seeing some guestbook signatures and stuff! And i'm still looking for more shout outs on here...is it so much too ask? no i didn't think so. well peace out cub scout

good day all you beautiful people. I like how no one shouted out to my stewie pic. You guys better do that soon. Stewie is the man. haha. So thursday i had my stupid Enviromnental science class for way too long and then afterwards jeff and i went to the mall again. This time i bought too much stuff...even tho i spent less than a hundred ..it was still a lot. But it's always fun going to the mall. Afterwards we got back and ate at birch tree. Then we walked over to the village where there was a party in 3F. We saw Greg coming back and we peer pressured him to go back even tho he was a lil buzzed already. He was good tho and didn't drink anymore. Jeff and I didn't really drink either cuz they only had light beer and it's really gross. They had shots there too but we didn't have any. So we came back after only maybe a half hour after we got there.

Friday morning was weird cuz jeff woke up and then went back to bed and got up 15 min before class. Then i never reset my alarm and i got up a half hour before class. I went to english, late again, and then jeff and i went to lunch w/ tiger. Then jeff had class so while he was away i just wasted time on the internet and did some stuff w/ my blog. Then jeff came over and we ate some chinese food and it has just been a really relaxed night so we're gonna watch a movie now..hopefully the weekend livens up..later people

"I say, am I supposed to spend the whole day wallowing around in my own feces? A little service here."

"Hello mother. Care to partake in one of your oh so exhilarating games of peekaboo?"

"Yes, but no sprinkles. For every sprinkle I find, I shall kill you."

Yes, Stewie is the best character on family guy (this is an impromtu to shout out!!)

Hey hey party people. So my wednesday was quite eventful. It started on a bad note just cuz i really didn't want to go to my effective speaking class (do i ever?) and give my damn speech on the 60's. I got my first grade though, a B+...which is pretty bad considering the kid that didn't have a visual aid and gave one of the crappiest speeches i ever heard in my life got an A-. Not fair at all. The teacher says I'm too nasily...like I can help that? How do you go about fixing that? I could understand if he told me to be louder...but i'm too nasily? Ok...i'll get right on that. Also I wasn't committed enough to my speech. But A- boy does it on LSD...of course he was committed...whatever..the class is BS anyway.

So afterwards I was off to the bandshel for our school's convocation. We were singing for choir there so we got to sit on stage w/ all the important people. We sang well but otherwise we looked like a mess because not even five min. into the thing the girl in front of me fainted cuz of the heat...then the bees wouldn't stop attacking all of us so we were like freaking out avoiding them, and this guy two seats away from me leaned back to far on his chair and made a loud noise and almost fell completely backwards. Ughh...it was embarrassing. But it was cool cuz later some girl came up to me and told me we sounded really good. Then she asked what part i was and i'm like alto, and she was all happy cuz i guess she had alto pride too. Rock on :)

Also at convocation was the John Lennon lookalike. I couldn't believe he was there cuz i thought he had already graduated, but he's actually a junior. It's very cool cuz i went up to him and i was like "you prolly get this all the time but you really look like john lennon" and he was like yeah... But anyway he is really a very corgial, nice person and we are going to compare our beatle collections one day haha. I will take a picture for you all cuz it's freaky how much he looks like John Lennon.

Then after all that Jeff and I went to Palisades. This time we got to the visitors circle at like 6:15 cuz we were so paranoid about missing it like last time. I only went into H&M tho because afterwards we went to Fridays where we were denied our potato skins, charged extra for our desserts and then the waitress talked us into complaining about it so we got them for free cuz of her. I guess she wanted us to have more money to tip her w/ haha. Then we were paranoid the bus would leave us at the mall so we quick stopped into FYE where Jeff got a DVD and we waited for the shuttle for like 20 min.

We came back to Ramapo and jeff and i watched family guy w/ Greg, Tiger and Ed and eventually Jim came in. Then they watched Porn so i had to distract Jeff from watching it anyway i could. Damn guys and their porn. Why must it be done? I'm not a fan of it at all. Those girls are nasty and don't deserve to be paid for that crap. And Jeff of all people is not allowed to watch it! haha :-p

So now I'm back here...about to start my enviro. science work...i really really loathe that class...almost more than effective speaking cuz at least we get out early from there...but no we stay the entire 3 hrs and 20 min and listen to the fish lady babble and stray away from the topic and i want to kill myself every thursday cuz of her.

Oh- and reese's pb cups are sooooooo good :-p

Haven't updated in a while...

So sunday coming home was good. As I said Anton and I had a good car ride home where i amazingly knew all the words to a Vendetta Red song I never even heard before. Damn I am good. The rest of the day i didn't do much but go to dinner at the Birch which i missed sooo much (sarcasm haha) and that was pretty much it. Monday was lazy...I woke up at 12:30 and went to lunch...wrote some stuff for english then went to class.

My seminar class, called Abraham, Isaac and Jacob is something. It's really interesting but last night all we did was go over Genisis which I just felt like we were in story time in Kindergarten with her big bible story book and whatever. She was so expressive about everything tho. The kids in the class are so rude though. A lot of them got put into the class cuz it was one of the only ones left so they are just rude about being there. They have no respect for what she's teaching and they just seem very ignorant. I'm not gonna get mad cuz they ask stupid questions because some are legit for people who don't know anything about the bible. But to me it just seems redundant. It's more the fact that they are rude to her that makes me angry.

Bobby is in that class with me and people are freaked out by how much he knows, which is weird cuz he barely shows off how much he really knows in that class. Like he explained Cain and Able and people thought he was a freak. Whatever...what i really wanted to say is that I am mad cuz he's transferring in February to TCNJ. I never thought I'd care too much cuz i used to complain that he was going here. But he has remained a close friend of mine here and we have a good time talking about good ol' F town and Young life and stuff. If he leaves I don't know where I'll get that same feeling from. I mean i started emailing Mrs. Phillips, and I joined the IVCF, and Jeff wants to go to church w/ me and all, but Bobby has that home feeling of christianity (if that makes sense) and he was right here. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm actually going to miss Bobby when he leaves. Unbelievable as it might seem. ;-)

After I got back from class i we watched some family guy in gregs room then Jeff and I got latenight. Ahhh chicken sandwiches were back and I was happy. Then we came back here and we watched Jay and Silent Bob strike back. A farely good movie in the series (I have now seen all of them) but prolly #3 or #4 on the list after Clerks and Dogma (J&SBSB is tied w/ Mallrats until i see MR again and decide). A lot of cameo's in that movie. I kinda missed some characters that did not pop up but there was so many other celebs it might have added to the overkill of the cameo.

This morning there was a damn firedrill at 9:00. It was evil and we were in the pouring rain for 10 minutes...which is a long time when all u are wearing are shorts and (lucky me) a sweatshirt. I came back here and went to sleep and then off to english class where I had only written the paper for last night. Now hopefully I'm off to get some eats so i'll update later. peace (and hair grease)

Well friday i came home for the first time. Of course no one was here so it wasn't a big entrance or anything. My dad came in about 20 min later and he seemed pretty happy to see me. I felt bad cuz i couldn't stay long cuz of jaime's bday thing at 7.

So jaime's bday was good i guess cuz i got to see everyone but i really hate ruby tuesdays so that kinda dampened my mood...not a lot but seriously the food is usually bad there and it's pretty far from my house. Then we wasted like an hour just sitting there talking at the table, and then more time outside talking. It's hard...i feel like everyone in our group is mad at me? i dunno. Anton is just always making things awkward. (btw i'm only putting this on here cuz he felt the need to say that i piss him off on his blog but he can't say it to my face...so if that's how he wants to work it then fine) I have no problem w/ jaime or meli...even dennis is a lil better cuz now that he's drank at school he can't really be mad at me for what i did. So we kinda agreed just to accept what the other does. Erin and I are actually fine, which i'm really glad about. She doesn't act awkward about it, so i won't. Anton just seems like he thinks we can't talk. I don't mind talking but he's just so condesending. ....UPDATE Anton and I actually had a good ride home..even though we had to make two trips back to our houses to get stuff we forgot, it was still a pretty cheery ride and things are better i believe.

So anyways today i got up around 11:30 and around 1, erin and i went to BJ's where i got a 24 pk of instant ramen, cereal, bagels and cookies. Then i went to marshalls and put a winter coat on hold which my mom and i bought later on. It's very nice i believe. I will actually wear this one this winter unlike my other coats that i get. :)

Tonight Tyke came over around 6:30 and we talked about how school was going and i gave her her b-day gifts that i think she enjoyed (esp. the paul newman poster haha) Then lucky came over and we went to shoprite where we saw...Frosh! lol now he's a junior..it's getting worse. But he got a tatoo apparently that we saw and he had knee surgery over the summer. so he's not in football so i dunt know if our school beat hillsborough on friday...lol. So then we mozied on over to the coffee shop (but stopped in erins ice cream store first) and at the coffee shop we saw Kernan and Kelly. It was nice to see them, and i got to talk w/ kelly about Tenacious D :) But the three of us just talked about college some more and lucky and i thought about what it would be like if Stephanie Maniscalco still lived here and it would be weird if we were a group of 4 instead of 3. I think it woulda been cool, but i still like just bein a three.

So then we came back to my house and we just watched TV until around 12ish and now i'm here. Tomorrow I have to find out what time anton and i are leaving cuz he still hasn't told me...And also tyke has to let me borrow her black skirt for my choir performance wed. I can't wait to go back to school and see Jeff and hear Greg and the rest of them making fun of mike/booksock ninja and see my suitmates too. I have work to do too....but oh well...monday it'll happen. :)

So today I was really tired getting up apparently. I actually slept in Jeffs room while he and mike were at class cuz i was just too tired to get up. He came back in at 10:30 and I'm like...when is ur class start (thinking it was still 7ish) and he's like uhh i already went to class. I was so out of it this morning. Then I went to the worst class ever- environmental studies where i was bored out of my mind for 3 hrs and 20 min. I got back and went to dinner w/ Jeff and Greg at the PavUHlon and then jon came and joined us at the end. He and viv apparently talk a lot now haha. I like to think i helped the AZN connection be a little more connected. Then Jeff and I were gonna go to the mall but of course we were running late and exactly at 6:45 we saw the damn shuttle drive off w/o us. We were majorly pissed but we called Tiger and he gave us a ride. I got a few things for other ppl and some lil things for myself. We came back and i watched ppl play ping pong and then me, jeff, greg and Jim went to late night. Jim is from hillsborough so he knows about Flemington so i got to talk about F-town memories w/ him haha.

We came back to our dorms and we watched some south park and family guy then jeff had the idea to go walk out in the rain. So we went w/ Greg and Ed and just walked out there and jeff and i tried splashing the puddles on each other but i so got him better. So now i'm back here and it's 2 in the morn and i think Jeff is gonna sleep over....I'm not gonna see him for 2 days! That's so weird cuz i haven't not seen him since the monday we first got here. It'll be the longest time spent w/o him. It's really strange. Oh well on sunday we are gonna go to this church thing together so i'm looking foward to that. Hopefully it's interesting or at least just informative. I'm glad he wants to go w/ me. :)

Oh ok Andrew just came in and I say he is a mad cool person and he likes to party and do the cha cha slide!
*Jeff you are cool too...but you don't do the cha cha slide :)*


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Ok I really should be doing my environmental science homework right now but hey...it bores me and i hate the class really so...it must wait.

So last night I decided to go to "club facade" with my suitmates Dana, Nicole and Ashley. I wanted to go because I really haven't spent to much time w/ them. I wanted to invite Jeff too but they were like, noo it's a ladies night out. So i'm like ok fine, not a big deal. So I went to class and came back to have dinner w/ Jeff and then I got ready to go. As I was getting ready though I was noticing that guys were around and it wasn't until we were waiting for some girls down the hall that i realized these guys were going w/ us. Now...it was only like 4 of them but still I was confused as to why they were allowed to go and Jeff couldn't. So now Jeff was gonna do his paper, and i did want him to do that, but i told him he could come now. I invited him a few times but he said no and went to the library instead.

So we go to the club. At first it felt like a 7th grade dance cuz the music was loud and there was NO ONE on the dance floor. Mind you this is at 11:00 too, and the club opened at 10. So i'm like ok this better get better. It was weird tho bcuz at this club you could drink no matter what age you were. At first i thought if i was gonna have anything it would be cuz of finding someone 21 or older. But no, you could go right up to the bar and ask for a smirnoff and they give it to you. Now i'm not gonna go into what i had or w/e but yeah i drank at the place. I wasn't drunk tho coming home and we had a designated driver w/ us. It was all a very good time until....

I get home and Jeff was upset that i left him here alone. I wish he had told me that before i went though. I didn't know until the last minute that guys could come, and once i did know I asked him to come. True it would be hard for him to change so quick, but we were waiting for the girls down the hall for way longer than it would have taken him to get ready. Plus he left for the library so i thought he really needed to go study and do his paper. Apparently he was a lot more mad than I thought. I felt so horrible that he felt so alone...I didn't know what else to say exept that i thought about him all night and spent it around the girls anyway. But I don't really like to get into it, we've talked about it so many times i just hate thinking about him being mad at all. Next time we go he is most def. coming no matter what gender night it is :)

So in other news today i woke up 10 minutes before class but still made it on time. I don't sleep at night and pay for it in the morning big time everyday. This is why i end up sleeping till 2 in the afternoon on saturdays. Not good i guess.

Oh yeah, funny thing, My friend John here told me that Viv talked to him...lol..at first i thought it was that whole asian connection thing (6 flags: hey...do you know vivian?) but then i realized she got his SN from his blog..but haha that vivian. :)

So I guess that's all. The dinner tonight was all breakfast food so naturally it sucked ass and I don't feel good at all. I ate w/ Jeff, Greg, John and johns friend (name i forget). Greg is pretty funny esp. when he's making fun of people...which of course isn't right but still it's funny..."why the hell were you born?" and the girl at the table across from us which was quite a horrible sight.
But yeah...breakfast for dinner...ugh. I can't wait to go home and get some real dinner!! Which yes...friday i'm goin back to F-town for jaimers bday...and technically tyke and phil too since we didn't see them for theirs.

well i gotta floor meeting soon...and still environmental science to do so i guess that's all for me...

I haven't written in a while....I guess that's cuz i haven't done much. Let's see... I don't really remember saturday too much. I know not much happened i guess. I think that night we watched Boondock Saints, which was a very good movie i must admit..."no laquoia!! Your mom could be watching!" We also watched Dogma which of course is a great movie.

Sunday Jeff made me sleep until freaking 3 in the afternoon and then we went w/ two guys from 306(?) to McDonalds for lunch. Then we came back and Jeff was lazy and fell asleep AGAIN hehe as I read some stuff for english. Then i guess we ate again...oh yeah and then we went to bobby's dorm to get chasing amy and we watched most of it..I dunno..a whole fiasco went down. I left for a lil while (he claims 45 minutes..i think it was more like 20..but anyway), Ge got all mad at me but he was actually just joking the whole time. Which is a huge relief because I really was scared for a while that he was really mad at me. All his roomates were like what the hell is going on? and i think we pissed off mike really bad cuz he wanted to sleep. But things are all good now and afterwards jeff and i went back to my room where I got ambushed for my keys by the guys in 302 and there was a huge shaving cream fight. Franco got a concussion apparently. But Jeff and I just locked the door and watched Chasing Amy which has been pretty good so far..we have like prolly 20 mins left to watch cuz we just got too tired so we shut it off and went to bed.

So now it is monday and I'm just shuffling through the day. I am such an asshole because I didn't call you Rich. Please forgive me! I am so sorry everyday i'm like.."ok i'm gonna call rich tonite" then it's like 11:00 and i'm like damn!!!!! If i were a californian i would say..."sorry man...I flaked!" but I'm a jersey girl so i just feel like an asshole. i am soo sorrry!!!

Well that's all for now. Tonight i have my freshman seminar w/ bobby and now...Andrew! yay he transferred into my class! And also i really wanted to watch the OC but i dunno if i'll be home. I'm def. watching it tomorrow night tho cuz something corporates new video will be on it. :) Plus Rich and everyone who watches it says it's sooo good. so i guess i'll find out :)

Well yesterday we finally went to a party but they were all really boring and i didn't do anything. I guess it was just a really bad night to go out but i've been so bored here lately i figured why not try to find some fun. I can't really even remember yesterday cuz i didn't do anything but prolly just hang out w/ jeff all day cuz he is my only highlight of everyday...Oh yeah we went to the gym w/ andrew and we worked our our calf muscles...man jeff has the sexiest calves in all the land (haha...who looks at calves???)

Today i talked to rich briefly but i plan to call him tonight. I haven't talked to him in soo long! i feel bad but now we are both in school so it's harder to talk. But soon i will go to the city and visit.

Ugh i hate the weekend. It's rainy and i haven't done anything all day but laundry and i keep forgetting my 75 cents so i put all my laundry in and then i have to run upstairs to get my money. What a bitch. Oh well. Thats all to report for now. I'm hoping so badly that something interesting happens soon before i start seeing laundry and homework as my weekend fun.

So i decided it's 2:15 in the morning...so why not write some stuff in the blog? Well today was extremely boring in the fact that i had Environmental Science and the class is freaking 3 hrs and 20 minutes long and all we get is a stupid 10 minute break in between. Definitely not enough time with the boredom involved in that class. I think a good amount of ppl in there feel the same way i do about it so i think we should all just drop it at once and wouldn't that be a slap in her fish loving face.
Anyway after that bane (was that in the right context?) I did pretty much nothing. Ate all of jeff's doritos and we watched the fued and then ate dinner and went to best buy w/ Greg and his cous and his cous' roomie. I got gross pointe blank and the suicide machines cd. hopefully they will be good. i know SM is already tho. GPB is supposed to be very good and ya got good ol' john so everything he does is great so i think it's a safe bet.

Oh yeah and yesterday was kinda like today in the fact that it was boring as well but me, jeff, greg and greg went to friendly's and a good time was had by all. Jeff wanted me to ask for the suicidal hostess' number but i didn't. And then there was my black baby comment and the new term of "sugarmonkey" Dunno what it is yet but it sure is funny. haha i'm laughing at it right now. I guess that's all. Jeff and I are really getting along well and it's cool to have that in my life. ok time to go to bed lata~!~~!~

Well I just read Phil's blog and I feel kinda bad i didn't give him a call, but i did wish him happy bday. And Cards! what a good idea! I shoulda sent one out. Well I'm gonna go shopping this week for all the birthdays this month (Rebecca, Phil, Tyke and Jaime)

So what's been going on in my life? I think things have been really good. I am in Jeff's room prolly for most of the day. I like all the ppl he lives w/ tho. Mike is a lil weird w/ his anime stuff but it's funny still, Mark Triano is in there and he makes these weird faces all the time but he's nice. There is greg(marks roomie) who seems nice and then the other Greg who is so funny and even funnier when he's drunk (....*wakes up* Turn on the air conditioning! *goes back to sleep*) haha and then of course Andrew who is the nicest kid. He calls me like senorita and stuff (he calls most girls that but it's still funny) And he is Jeff's personal trainer now cuz jeff is lazy. *just kidding*

Ok now i have to talk about Franco cuz he's here right now and he's so weird. I barely know him but he hangs out here all the time. He blasts Billy Joel and walks past my room and sings some of the lines really loud. I dunno...he's just a weird kid but he's nice i guess.

Oh yeah since everyone talks about fire drills....i've only done one and that was yesterday at like 10 in the morn. I hear there was one today but i was in class. Our fire alarm sounds like a duck or something. I didn't know what it was yesterday when it happened. I was getting pissed cuz i thought someone was making the sound on purpose. It's such an ugly sound ugghh....

Oh yes lastly I had choir for the first time last night. It's weird cuz we are singing simple gifts...for anyone in womens choir last year...you know my pain. But i mean the song is good still. It's weird bein a real alto and not an alto 1. It's so low! W/e tho...I met this kid Seth in it and he is apparently in an R&B group w/ other kids who don't go to this school. He commutes too. He wants to help me but i don't need his help! haha i'm great. :-p
oh everyone better come to our concert on Dec 2nd or i'll kill you all :)

Wellll hellow Miss Tyke, how has yo' day been? Word is it is yo' birthday? Well Happy Birthday to ya! I hope the day has been beautiful! Well I gots to go, you call me any time you need a favor alright?- Chahee

Tyke that was for you. The chahee misses you and wishes you a happy birthday. I do as well. Nice of you to finally be 18...could you have taken any longer? Haha...well hopefully i'll be seeing you soon so we can chill and do what comes before part b!

Annnyways. In other news...last night i went to the gym w/ jeff, andrew, john and mike. It was good and all but then right after we ate and any calories i burned got slapped right back on and doubled w/ the pizza i ate. Then later on me, ed and greg played the simpons trivia game and ed won even tho we tried to sabotage him. Then we all watched some south park and then i did more of jeffs homework (haha jk)

Oh yeah yesterday I ate lunch w/ Anton. It was ok, we just sorta talked about the group and how it's a lil weird right now. But i think everyone just needs to get over themselves and understand we're gonna do stuff that others don't like so just accept it. Even tho i have my own griefs w/ ppl right now hopefully by jaimes birthday i will be over it. If we all come back and it's awkward i will be pissed and that's how the group is gonna get broken up. Just deal w/ it please.

Tonight i have to write a freakin speech about what freedom means to me...which i actually have been wondering about since he told us to do it but i am still at a loss for words as of what to say. But soon i have choir class so that's what's on my mind now i guess. There is a party tonight. I dunno if i'll go...depends on what Jeff wants to do and if we watch orange county or not. Updates lata....

I woke up today too late cuz i missed the social work club meeting. I really hate when i sleep too late. I mean..i wanted to get up at 11..i got up at 1:30. Damn

Well I mainly wanted to write right now cuz today is Phils bday and i wanted to wish him a happy one at that. so...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHIL!!! i miss ya bud, I hope everything is well. Ur gift is in the mail. (.....?)

Today I woke up at three. Jeff slept over and wouldn't get up when i told him to (Note from Jeff: Bullshit) So everyone in the crew seems to be doing well. i dunno whats up w/ viv and meli cuz i barely talk to them but hopefully everything is well (oh yeah and phil too...wassup budday?) so i've met some interesting ppl here. There is jeff of course but his roomate mike who is obsessed w/ anime and sings along to the openings. its weird but kinda funny too. there is ed who is crazy and laughs like a hyena sometimes for no reason but its all good. oh yeah on friday ed went w/ me to commerce bank and we went to the toy store next to it i bought a simpsons trivia game. it was pretty fun. oh yah also there is this guy kyle who we call tiger cuz he looks like tiger woods really bad. He's really cool tho and he drove me, jeff this kid john and this girl that went to HS w/ tiger to the palisades mall in NY. I think it's like the second biggest mall in america. It was cool tho and we all went on the ferris wheel in the mall. We went into this lil kids game place too and got a bunch of tickets so tiget just got a bunch of green, glow-in-the-dark teeth.

So anyway, onto my roomates. There is Dana, Susan, Trinese, Amy, Ashley (AJ) and Nicole. I think we all get along pretty well. Lately I've been spending a lot of time w/ Jeff so i don't get to bond w/ them that much, but all they do is go out to parties and usually come home drunk. There are two guys that are always there for them, Franco and Jim. Jim was over last night around like 1 i guess and he's just asks me to hug him. So yeah i dunno where they went but he was obviously drunk. It's ok tho, he's a pretty nice guy.

So Rich thinks i hate him cuz i don't call him enough! haha don't worry rich i'm not gonna hate you and forget about you. Just keep emailing me and soon i'll write you a letter i believe.

Hmm what else. I haven't talked to Anton in a while. He wants me to hang out w/ him and i will soon just now that i'm w/ Jeff it's more awkward. I have to return his movie anyway so i'll be seeing him soon.

Anyways i have to write a stupid speech about what freedom means to me so i'm gonna get goin. People...i may be out a lot but you can always call or write me and i will most def. get back to you. Viv i have to call you soon...meli too. Ok talk to you all soon!

All i have to say is that things are so weird right now. On one hand i want to be really pissed at Erin cause she broke a promise to me. Then of course i'm also pissed at Dennis but i haven't talked w/ him yet. But most of all i'm pissed at anton for not expecting me to find new people. It's not like i was intentionally looking for a new boyfriend, i was put into these situations, and yes i didn't back away from them. Now....anton has called me everything from a bitch to a whore (real mature considering i'm not) but not once does he take the time to realize that he's been lying to me too. He says he doesn't want another girlfriend and when i was upset that he was hanging around erin so much he told me not to worry and all that stuff. Well ok now i found out that i was right all along, so what does that make him now? a hypocrite? yeah...that word he called me a thousand times but never once thought of himself as one? It pisses me off to no end that he can get so pissed at me still when we are fucking broken up. And the fact that he says that he's the only one who makes any effort...bullshit. I make just as much effort as him and at least i can be cheery around him. He always sounds mad or awkward. He's been telling me about all the chicks and parties in his room at night and i haven't cared (even tho i think he exaggerates it a lil) but either way i don't care. Even when erin told me how he asked her out and has been.."putting moves" on her i didn't care too much. I mean of course i do cuz of the fact that we were so close, but we made the agreement that if we found someone new then we wouldn't interfere. He asked me about finding someone new and i was like if you really like her then go ahead...which brings me to another thing. Anton you can go out w/ erin if want but if you are just using her or if you cheat on her seeing how we're both in diff. schools i will never speak to you again. It's bad enough how you have been hurting me (during and after our relationship) but if i have to see her going through that too then i can't help but see you as the King asshole.

Another thing now. Lay off of Rich and Jeff. I haven't had sex with either one of them and that reason is because of God. I can't believe you have that little trust in me to make my own decisions.

BUT Even though I'm incredibly pissed off at you right now I still want to be your friend. Oh so long ago we said that if we ever broke up we still wanted to be friends. I don't know why you had to be so rude to me since we broke up. If you were only a tiny bit as calm as i was maybe it would be easier. You have been acting like i'm so evil ever since and that is not the way to make someone want to open up to you again. We've had a good time so far in college so why do we have to mess it up cuz i met a new people. you have too

In other news I love a lot about college. The freedom and the all the new ppl. I miss everyone else a lot too and hopefully i'll be coming home soon..prolly jaimers bday so that'll be when.

Wellll I am finally in college.



So anyway today...new school. Pretty interesting. I can't remember a lot of it already. My roomate didn't get here until about 7:30ish cuz she was at a soccer tournament in NY for ramapo. but when she did get in she was so nice and even tho she's out possibly drinking somewhere right now i think she is gonna be a good roomie. She likes the music i do and we got similar lives i think.

Speaking of music...there is Nsync in the next room playing really loud...which is better than the techno music that was on before, but still i think i'm gonna have to start a competition soon w/ my stuff. *evil grin* ...thats making friends right?

Oh yeah so i actually spent most of my day w/ bobby...it was weird. He's in my seminar class so that is partly why, but i also visited his dorm and he came over to mine for a lil bit before dinner. It's good to have him here cuz i actually can get along w. him (surprise=:o) and he's good for meeting new people...haha. But yeah it's good

So Anton and doug live DIRECTLY above me. And when i say directly i mean it. I mean if they drilled a hole anywhere in their floor they would see me. Cuz i am in 301 rm C and they are 401 rm C. Sooo weird. but cool i spose. It takes me like 2 min to get up there, i spent a lil time in there..but it was messy and i wanted to fix up my internet connection...anton came over too and helped so that is why i can talk now :) ok i know my address too but i will just send it in an email to y'alls k? That's all for now...tomorrow we all have to leave by 10ish i think so that sucks...there are 7 girls in here that share 1 bathroom...It truly sucks but we'll have to deal i spose...welcome to Ramapo...Welcome Home.